Goodness Gracious Great Balls of... Peace?

Life is so good. I don't care what anyone else tries to tell you, life is amazing. The fact that I am alive and able to talk and sing and dance and read and all of that is more than I could ever even ask for. I am so incredibly blessed beyond what I can even dream. God has given me so much more than I ask for. He has poured so many wonderful things into my life.
It's been a long day today. We did a lot of recording for our promo video and some footage for the luggage service. I got to read a script for the promo video. It was so much fun. I really love speaking in front of people. I guess it was actually a camera I was speaking in front of, but people will be watching it, so it's pretty much the same thing in my book. We worked in filming from lunch till about 5:30. It was fun though. Amanda gave me a makeover and Renee dressed me up. I felt like such a movie star! Haha.
But now we're done and I have such and intense craving to go to the beach and sink my toes into the sand and listen to the waves and look at the moon reflecting off the water and just listen to God whisper to me. It would be perfect if there were stars out. I love looking at the stars when God talks to me. They're so beautiful and peaceful. Peaceful... hah. It's funny that a violently flaming ball of gas way off in the universe seems so tranquil and calming to me when in reality it's a mass of chaos and confusion. I guess that's what the peace of God is like though. [I'm just thinking out loud... that's what this is for, right?] I mean, my life is full of chaos and confusion but somehow God gives me this peace. I guess that's the best way I can explain it right now.
I don't know if I'll make it to the beach or not. Maybe I'll find a car to borrow or get a ride. But for now I'll just have to be content listening to God whisper to me right here. I can live with that.

Peanuts!

Wow, it's been quite a weekend. Most of the team went to Dothan, AL to help pastor with a sermon he was preaching. Our band led worship and Chelsea asked me to sing with her on Sunday morning. Sunday night Pastor Lambert did his illustrated sermon about the functions of the mind by using the story of George Washington Carver and the uses of the peanuts. It was very appropriate since Dothan is peanut town and it was National Peanut Festival Week. We had a lab set up and even did a funeral scene with the speech from the vice president. It was a surprisingly relaxing weekend. I got to see my uncle who lives in Dothan; it's been a few years since the last time I saw him. I had AMAZING home openers too. They had a daughter named Leah that me and Renee really hit it off with. It was nice to get away and be a part of a service while still being able to sit down and take notes and enjoy the teaching. I'm back home now and I'm not sure for how long, but I'll enjoy each day as it comes.

Breathe in. Breathe out.

It seems like I keep telling myself to just keep breathing here lately. Things have been so busy I've barely had time to breathe, much less do anything else. But the theme this week is Inward Disciplines, so we've had time on the schedule for Solitude. It's so great to get away for an hour and just sit with God and listen and talk and sort my thoughts out. It's really helped me get a lot of things in order. I wrote in my journal today what some of my dreams are. Right now they're a bit general and vague, but me and God are working on that. So what are my dreams? I want to have a family - a husband and children. I'm so excited about having kids one day. I also want to be in the ministry, and not necessarily in the sense that I'm on a church payroll. And the other one I wrote down is that I want to teach or disciple in some way, shape, or form. That's all I've been able to sort out right now. Whenever I think about my life I feel like I'm looking at a closet with all kinds of stuff crammed in it and I get so overwhelmed when I look at the big picture that I just focus on one thing at a time. I know eventually I'll get it sorted out, but I have to start somewhere, even if it seems small and insignificant.

On another note, I'm listening to the new Copeland CD Kathy gave me a copy of and I love it. I'm supposed to be seeing them near the end of November and I'm so excited. I've wanted to see them live for such a good time. It's gonna be great.

Now I'm gonna try and get some rest. We've kinda had a slow day today, but tomorrow things pick back up and don't really slow down again until Monday. It's gonna be a fun weekend in Dothan, AL though!